I blog because I like to share my story with other people, and I read blogs because I like to read about how other mothers do it. I also read them to find a sense of community and feel less alone in being a SAHM, which let's face it can get pretty lonely. This is the main reason I try my best to blog with honesty. I blog about the good, the bad, and the ugly. I think this is important so that other mothers don't feel alone or like they are failures when they have a bad day.
There are many days I go to bed feeling like a failure. I was not a good enough mother. I lost my temper with the babies or with Will. I didn't accomplish what I needed to. That is honest. On the other hand there are night I go to sleep feeling like I totally rocked it today. Most days I just go to bed fulfilled, knowing I tried my best, my babies are happy and I'm pretty good at this whole motherhood things. And I know for a fact every mother has gone to bed feeling every single one of these feelings plus many more.
I blog about everything and I admit things like this so people don't feel alone. You are not the only one who sometimes dreads outings because your babies are almost too much to handle. You are not the only one with a messy house. You are not the only one trying to do it all and not quite getting it done. I know I find comfort in blogs like this. I feel like I'm not alone and I am doing everything I can. So what if the dishes didn't get done. So what if I didn't do some creative homemade activity with my babies today. Honestly they were just as happy with cuddle time and seasame street.
So why is it that when I read blogs or facebook comments about mothers who only report the positive and do nothing but brag about their little ones, does it bother me so much? I feel when I read those reports that I do not do enough, that I'm not good enough, that my kids deserve better of me. I know for a fact that those things are not true. I am a great mother with happy babies. We do fun things. We go interesting places. I generally have a clean(ish) house and dinner on the table.... generally...
So this is just a reminder to those mothers who are struggling. You are not alone! I have bad days. We all do. I promise you that I will blog about them so that you can know that you are not crazy. I will blog about the days I want to pull my hair out, but I will also blog about how I think Penny might be a genius because of how quickly she is picking up sign language. I blog about all of these things because that is motherhood. All of it is motherhood: the good the bad and the ugly.