One year.... wow...

I can't believe is has been a year!  When I think back to that day last year it seems like a life time ago!  I labored for 14 hours until it stalled and I had my C-section.  I remember the first time is saw them, Penny was screaming and Ben was just taking it all in... not much has changed.  They were so tiny!  They were both 5 lbs 8 oz.  That is a pretty good size for twins, but they were just so tiny.  I kept their preemie diapers just to remind myself how tiny they were.  There were some minor complications.  Ben wouldn't suck and he was losing weight, we almost didn't get to take him home.  Breast feeding was so difficult for me.  Just settling into life with twins was difficult.  I remember how scared I was to give them their first bath.  The first night I was home with them I didn't sleep because I was so afraid I wouldn't wake up... little did I know they have no trouble waking me up!!  I just seems like another life.

My life has moved from feeding bottles to feeding cheerios.  From rocking and soothing to chasing and tickling.  From gentle lullabyes to disney dance parties.  Penny and Ben changed my life the day they were born and have continued change my life everyday since.

Ben, I hope you always keep your curious mind.  I love to sit and watch you figure things out.  You have a sweet natures and a gentle soul.  Your expressive face melts my heart.  You are determined and affectionate.  You do this thing wear if you love something you hold it to your head, and I love the little head bumps you give me when you crawl over to me.  I love you too big guy!

Penny, I hope always stay as passionate about life.  When you smile you smile from the tips of your toes to the top of your head, and when you are upset you are upset at the same level.  I love that about you.  I can tell right now you are going to be a mover and a shaker and a person who gets things done.  I love everyday when you hold you hands out and toddler across the room to me and give me a big kiss.  You are so funny and smart!  You figure out toys and puzzles and I can see your mind working, then when you get it you look up and smile and clap.  You are so proud of yourself, but you are nowhere near as proud as I am of you.  You make me proud and fill my life up so much.  I love you!

I'm so excited to see what this next year brings.  I can't imagine how different my life will be from today, but I know I will love every minute of it with my dynamic duo Penelope and Benjamin.  I love you more than I can every say.

Happy Birthday Babies!!!

Penny

Ben